Monday, July 22, 2013

A little too late

If anyone is out there reading my post then you know some what of what I have been through. You have heard me rant and rave about how verbally abusive my ex can be and how he can be mean one day and apologetic the next. And the routine keeps going. Yesterday morning I found my phone (that he pays for) no longer works. He calls me on my mom's phone to tell me that it is just one of his sorry's that is about to happen and how he is mad. Then in the evening he calls again but this time crying. Says he has talked to his "other" mom, an older woman who has become a mother figure in his life. She apparently made him realize what he has done and what he has said to us through out our relationship was not good. So now he is apologizing profusely and crying. He finally apologizes for every hurting the girls or my feelings. He is magically willing to go through counseling if I will only go back and start over. Unfortunately for him it is a little too late. I know longer want to go back and try AGAIN to make it work. I tried it for a year. A year he had a chance to see his ways and fix them. It took for me and the girls to leave and not go home for him to see what he has done to us. And now he wants us back just like that. I'm sorry but I can not. I do not want to try again just to get frustrated and cry again. I have no more tears for this relationship. I just want it to be over. I wants us to be civil and peaceful. And I do want him to have a relationship with his daughter with out us being a couple. I just want to move on.




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